Gross

So, my living room is kind of gross. It's gross because we have a toddler that eats all her meals standing at the ottoman. And let me tell you, toddler plus ottoman plus food plus standing equals very bad idea. But we had little other choice.

Our dinning room chairs were never very comfortable. No one has ever liked sitting on them. You can't really tell from the photo. They are the old '90's style spindle back with seats that slope down towards the back. So basically  unless you are super tall with really long legs, the front edge cuts into the back of your legs. Everyone who has ever spent time at our dinning table has complained about it.

The thing was, it was a gift. The whole table set was a birthday gift, the first year Todd and I lived together. At the time it was still very much a popular color, style, design. It's not blonde, really, it's kind of yellowy natural.

I couldn't part with it. Ever. Long after this style and color had faded from popularity. Even after I broke my pelvis and could no longer sit on the chairs at all. And still, even after Lexi got her body cast and couldn't sit long periods let alone sit to eat. It's been a rough few years around here and the dinning room sort of just became storage area. Because I couldn't part with the table set and yet Lexi and I couldn't use it.

But now it's time. My living room is gross. I don't have the time, energy, or desire to continually rip the couch apart to wash it, and clean the carpet. As I write this there is food caked on the ottoman, The couch has dried on ketchup and yogurt, and the carpet is covered in crumbs.

I'm trying to keep up with it, keep it all cleaned. But it's hard, for so many reasons, it's hard to keep it clean. And what's worse is going to bed at night with food still caked on everything because I'm too tired to worry about it at that point.

It's gross, OK. I admit it. It's no way for us to live.

So we're about to spend a pretty penny on expensive chairs that I'll be able to sit on. Lexi's back brace (more on that next week) is removable and we will remove it for meal times, so her sitting issues are, now, non-existent. It comes down to my never-going-to-heal fractures and inability to sit on hard chairs and getting Lexi in and out of her booster seat.

The booster seat thing I'm still working on.

I bring all this up because I feel guilty for spending so much money on new chairs. The ones we have are ugly and outdated but they are still usable. We could, with a little time and work, buy slightly cheaper second hand chairs. There is also the option of getting those pain-in-the-butt chair pads that tie to the back. But for a variety of reasons (that I won't get into because this post is already getting long) we are choosing to buy new expensive chairs.

And I feel bad spending that kind of money. On chairs. Especially when it isn't going to solve all of our food in the living room problems anyway. Yet, we're still going to do it.

Because my living room is humiliatingly gross.

Just wanted to share, thanks for reading.